The Truth.

honestly

I am finding being in this space kinda hard to be in.

Life is getting in the way

And I don't know how good I feel about being here

I'm not the kind of person who finds it easy to get things done.

Others find it easier, but I am still learning, it doesn't come naturally

My life requires lists, organisation and lots of pushing.

I worry A LOT

And right now there is a balance that I am TIGHTLY holding onto

the tightness is exhausting. letting go is hard.

I know I shouldn't be holding on this tight it isn't healthy

There are still things I have to work through

It is getting easier, the things that bubble up now are easier to deal with

and I am far far happier

but to hold on to that happiness is still something that requires constant attention and constant checking.

I have come a very LONG LONG way. It is easy to forget that.

I am learning to love myself. I have to remind myself.

just being honest