wishing waiting thinking

The journalling reads " So much of my life is spent wishing, wishing that i was better, wishing that i was skinnier, whising i had more, wishing i could wear clothes that i like, wishing i was a better scrapper, wishing i was different, wishing i was a better mother,wife , daughter and friend. All this wishing makes me forget who i am. right now"

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This one was done with some wine in hand at 1am last night. sometimes life is a struggle for no reason than i struggle within myself. Out side of me my life is really good, just how i like it, wouldnt change much (maybe except the fact that we are living at my mums while we are building and i am so looking forwad to getting into our own house....but it wont be long and we will be there *sigh*) ITs just that there are so many things that i dont do that would inrich my life because i am too scared... i dont want to be scared anymore. i want to have fantastic experiences in my life......im wishing my life away sometimes......

fluttering butterfly

There is some writing around the swirls again it says "feel the fluttering of her delicate wings, feel the breeze as she flies through the wind, feel the silky petals as she lands upon a flower..." i have used some glimmermist, glitter and a squirty bottle and even some masking off for the flowers. There is pen and watercolour pencils on it too. :)

Darn it this photo looks a little blurry... oh well i think you get the gist. So today we are just hanging out having fun. Blake has just discovered some chalk hidden away in a box, and finally at Nana's house he can actually play with it. I am so glad that he finally has somewhere to play outside and i hope that when we get into the new house that it is not too much of a dust bowl and that he can play there. So this LO is from his birthday which was in the middle of moving into Nana's house (there is actually a dryer behind him and a whole lot of other stuff). My poor Nana is sick today and i have spent all day worrying about her, i don't think she has too many days left, she rang here this morning asking for my mother and she didn't sound good at all, she only just got out of hospital a few days ago after collapsing and being rushed off to hospital. I hope that she doesn't have to go back in again.

Three

So i didnt really draw this one i just traced it ... :) Enjoy your day !

My Heart

So i just finished a page in my journal thought i would show you......
I have written all around the pink swirls though it is a bit hard to see and that is a glittery butterfly on the heart :) hope you like

Little Lukey

This is my effort for today :)

there is an extra room in my mouth!!

It feels so strange... Yesterday i finally got my braces off, my tongue actually fits in my mouth now. I had the top braces on the inside of my teeth (so you couldn't see them) which made it harder to talk and food would get all stuck in them etc Yesterday i got them off and it is so strange, it feels so new and weird. AND I LOVE IT!! i have had so much work done to my teeth including a new implant in the front because my tooth died when i was younger. i was running in class as a kid and i tripped over a chair and broke the tooth in half horizontally on a table , my own fault but i have had to go through lots of operations and fixes trying to keep it, then my body tried to reject it, then while i had my braces done it snapped right out. Long story short i now have a FABULOUS new tooth that looks just like a real one and nice straight teeth it feels finally all worth it :)

February

Can you believe that it is February already?? So i am back finally online again, just starting to catch up on things. We are all moved into my mums house (we have kicked her out lol) and are all settled except that we have heaps to organise, like boxes and furniture that is being stored in the shed. It has been so hot here so we haven't done much of anything. Yesterday we signed the building contract so things might finally start happening, it feels like it has taken so long but we changed builders and these builders have been very fast really. So now were on to the fun part of selecting everything (this is the fun part for me anyway Paul is not so thrilled about it) i started looking at all the catalogues last night and it did get a little overwhelming trying to make sure everything matches.

I feel like it is time to get back into scrapbooking and get some cards made too- i have been getting a bit frustrated with the fact that i just want to do girly lo and i have two boys..... think i need to build a bridge ?? lol. Here is just a quick valentines day card too :